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I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright

But now everything you told me really don't apply

To the way I feel inside

Loving you was easy once upon a time

 But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first...

p.s.

when my dreams turn into nightmares and sleeping becomes a habit i resist the most.. that's when i know being with you is unhealthy. yet everytime i try to make a run from you, i lost all the reasons i have listed on my mind.

i hope one day you'll read this and realize how much you've hurt me.

sluuuuuuttttt

you have made me hate:

1. Jakarta
2. Finland
3. Finnish girls
4. Brunettes
5. The letter 'L'
6. Sydney
7. Senayan City
8. Kemang
9. Your room
10. Your kitchen
11. Your car
12. Your house
13. Vincent
14. George
15. Laura
16. Lauren
17. Rebecca
18. The slut
19. You (sometimes)
20. Myself

and everything else that reminds me of it.. I feel angry all the time and it's exhausting. I need some peace but i cant seem to find it..