i need more time.

just yesterday, one of my other friends lost his father.  

which reminded me of this image - the pattern of light portrays how we are living at the moment. Too fast, hurts the eye and noone knows at what point it will end. Sometimes that's how I feel and view my life. Although many might say that I've done some bad deeds (esp. my parents), when someone ask me a question on the most extreme thing ive done, it will take me awhile to come up with a slightly good enough answer. Is that how boring my life has been? just a straight, bright line with a point at the end? i can say i've been through a lot. but anyone can say that, cant they? I'm starting to lose the sense of how much is 'a lot'. 

back to the picture, i guess we all strive to be that couple among the speed of light. to stop the time and get the chance to hold our breath or breathe out in relieve. but time is abstract, and so are we. 

all like a tangled up different coloured wool. 

freeze me, time.

respect the respectful

I have 10 teachers in IB to fulfill my 7 courses. Yet, there's only one who makes me want to tie him to a chair and burn the classroom. Call him Mr Pee. Like other conventionalists, he gets stung so easily when nudged with slightly offensive matters. Then through using his label as a teacher, he explodes and naturally gobbles up all the respect i had for him. Did i even start with any? 

Teachers like him make me realize the nature of respect. Are we forced to respect those in authority? Verbally, no. But technically, yes. Why do we have to respect TEACHERS? I understand why we have to respect our parents, grandparents. Without them, will we exist? But with other adults, I feel that in order to gain respect, i have to earn them. Despite that, when i feel that i am not gaining any respect from the opposition, then all courtesy is lost no matter who they are. 

Nevertheless, it doesn't and can't operate in that manner. They may say that they are not enforcing students to respect teachers, and therefore it should be in the students' nature to feel the need to be civil to their teachers. But once us, students, stretch a tiny bit further than the accepted boundaries, those teachers will get enraged. Final result will have a negative impact on the student, of course. 

Back to Mr. Pee. As to now, I have no respect for him whatsoever. He treats me appallingly and I am running out of patience. I am starting to intentionally forget that he is a teacher i am forced to be polite to and look at him as a human being. A human being who doesn't deserve any courtesy. 

My Precious

haa! funny.

i was fixing my profile and accidently put my birthday in the wrong order. when i clicked on view, i felt so angry cus it said that my astrology sign is libra. i went back and quickly changed it. so relieved when virgo appeared. 

am i the only or will everyone else feel insulted if they are labeled with the wrong astrology sign? 

Moving On.

since im moving forward with my life .. (got an offer from manchester uni!) 

tis about time i change my blog too. 

xanga was getting a bit too childish and hard to manage. 

wanna see my older posts? 

check out 'knees!' at www.xanga.com/niiis